In the midst of yet another diet, I am wondering WHY?!  Why am I doing this to myself again. WHY at my age, am I worrying so much about my weight? I decided that as long as I eat healthy for the most part, so that I AM healthy, that is what I need to do. And it has to be okay. I have been on some sort of diet off and on for almost 40 years!  FORTY! Four-0! That is a long time. It is too much time wasted on worrying about my weight and how I look.

Tell me, just who decided that being unrealistically thin is THE way to be? How many people are constantly beating themselves up or feeling bad about themselves because they can’t achieve that. Or if they do, they can’t keep that way. I have been thin. Funny, I didn’t feel like I looked it. People actually told me I was too thin. Go figure. But it was too much work to stay that way. Maybe if it is so much work, we aren’t meant to be that thin.

I am tired of young women thinking less of themselves because they don’t fit into that thin category. You know what….SO WHAT?  We have far too many judgmental people in the world and fat shaming is just one of their past times. I don’t get judging another by how they look, at all. Is that what is important about a person? It is just such a shallow thing to worry about. I think someone being kind is much more important than how they look. I dislike seeing creative, kind, intelligent people feel like they don’t matter because their weight is more than people think it should be!

We see models showing beautiful clothes. Super thin models. I want to see normal people showing clothes.  I really would like to see how the clothes look on us regular sized people. (Do NOT get me started on the world’s definition of PLUS-size!!) I can put on something I liked when I saw it in an ad, on a model and feel pretty crappy about myself, sometimes in tears, for how it looks on me. I don’t want clothes, people, or weight to have that power over me any longer. I don’t want anyone else to feel less than.

It shouldn’t matter so much. The women of our world shouldn’t have to spend so much time and money on trying to achieve what is an acceptable weight that others have decided is the best for them!

The other day there was a cupcake food truck in town. I was supposed to be on this new diet, but come on…CUPCAKES!  These are delicious ones. It had been a year since we had been to this truck, so I grabbed my keys and hightailed it to their location. We grabbed a bunch of their delicious cupcakes, brought them home and enjoyed one or two.

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I no longer want to shed a tear or see anyone else shed one, because we feel less attractive or overweight or worse, like a failure, because we didn’t stick to the last ‘diet’. I don’t want to feel my worth rests on how I look or how I fit into a pair of pants! I want to believe that it is more important for me to be nice, to make a difference, to be happy.

I will no longer beat myself up because one night out I ordered fries instead of broccoli. I have started eating healthier for the majority of the time. I do feel better and I do have more energy. I also like to eat out with friends and like to enjoy eating a burger or pizza once in awhile. I no longer want to feel the immediate guilt that I have after doing so. Forty years of it is enough!

We are ALL more than a number on a scale or a number on a tag! It is time the world we lived in believed that too!